Bye 2005!

I only have 2 minutes to sum the year up if i want to post this entry up on this last day of 2005. And i am ill-prepared. Very.
Pardon the need to go back in time, when you read this on 2/1/2005 morning (most probably), cos i will backdate it.
To remember i did try to start the post on 31/12/2005. Also so that the title is still valid:P

The title of this post is deceptively more nonchalant than how I really feel tonight about bidding farewell to 2005.
So the obsession with date.
To cling on to the last moments of 2005 even as the clock ticks away.

As always, the missing and appreciation comes only when its gone.
If i had my way, I would stall time and not step into the new year. But at the rate that I am wishing for that almost every single year, I will still be stuck in yr 2000.
I'm starting to miss 2005 - for its good, bad, happy, sad and how I've lived/endured/ survived through it.
...

1) Getting closer and keeping in touch with friends I never thought I can get along with
Losing contact with firm friends

2) Resisting even a trim of the hair above shoulder length for ages
Then deciding to shorn it short in a couple of minutes

3) Puzzled and trying to recall what I saw in the top that made me splurge so much on it a few seasons back
To fall back in favour for a top from years back that was never worn cos I considered it far too outlandish

4) Unable to keep up with the tempo, energy of those English raps I've grew up listening
Discovering how I can actually identify with many of the Chinese ballads

5) Always habouring the fantasies, freedom and independence of living alone/abroad
To be proved so wrong.
Making Home- one of my favourite songs of the year and realising there's, really, no place like home.

6) Putting judgement that certain people/jobs/things/actions would not be sought after/fancied too quickly
Finding out - to each his/her own.
There would be someone out there that would be sharp enough to spot, find and pursue the gem that nobody saw and do wonders with it

7) Disappointing myself - for failing at stuff I thought i'm/was fully capable of &
Surprising myself- making it through the difficult times
I've been both humbled and awed this year

8) Overestimating how mature, collected, in control, pragmatic I am/can be
Underestimating how vulnerable, disoriented, lost and confused I can get relying on myself
I need God. Memorise and remember it!!

9) To learn that all lists dun necessarily have to have 10 points to make it complete:P

2005.
Unpredictability.Fragility. Frivolity. Surprises. Shocks. Cold. Warmth. Twists. Turns
Giving and taking chances.
Just like any year. But yet unique in its own way.

A year soon to go down in history
Prepared or not,
Yet another year coming along- fast and furious.