Confessions of the Queen Procrastinator

The should-do list grows and grows
Time ticks away and the deadlines loom menancingly near

The brilliant display of delaying tactics in postponing chores, tasks and decisions to later, tomorrow, next month
The disciplined denial of what's urgent
The determination to oust what should be the priority out of sight and out of mind
The flair of defending and excusing laziness, ill-discipline, sleepiness, (over)eating, (day)dreaming
The calm composure when one falls behind schedule
The ingenuity to deceive the mind that everything would turn out fine eventually

Surpassing the standards, taking it to unprecedented levels
It never fails to amaze me, how I outdo myself each time, that is, until...

Fear, panic and anxiety attack as time runs out
Disgust, frustration, anger and regret, after suffering the chill, nausea and turmoil of the frantic last minute rush,(re)surface to chasten and chide the squandering of time, the constant putting off of things
Ashamed and remorseful post-mortem, assurance is given that it won't happen again

But...
It inevitably does not work because
I NEVER learn