So this is Christmas, and what have you done?

There's nothing more enjoyable than to hear the medleys of Christmas carols in the malls, supermarkets and even while on hold on the phone. Something about them, whether bouncy, upbeat, melancholic or sentimental have this balming property that calms,uplifts and puts me right in the mood of Christmas - probably deserving the credit being one of the precious things that have accompanied me - heard/sung/played every Christmas for the last 26 years wherever it is and whatever it was I was doing.


And as reflections go into full swing in the last month of the year of what's done/undone, what's gained and lost - this is perhaps one of those Christmases that have been more special than others.Being abroad and coming home for Xmas has accentuated certain feelings, with a deeper sense of appreciation,a heightened awareness and sensitivity of own, relationships and places.

That said, I've been experiencing quite a bit of mixed emotions lately. Increasingly, I've acquired this knack of viewing matters in a whole spill of colours, no longer just black/white but lots of grey - so while there's joy, there's also a malaise of regret, pensiveness etc. Nothing wrong about that but i do miss feeling the headiness or even rashness of feeling absolutely certain and strongheaded about things.

Okay, I realised its youth I am hankering after which is clearly not very much on my side now.

Anw,one of my favourite scenes from Love Actually tells it quite nicely.
Merry Christmas dear all- wherever you are and however you are celebrating it.