Days of Our Life

There are good days when:

No one can dash the top-of-the-world feeling
You can't wipe that grin off the face
You feel light, with a skip in those steps despite feasting on delicious cakes heavily laden with butter and creamy cheese
Setbacks are taken in the stride
Follies of the past are forgiven
You bounce back after disappointments with zest and optimistism
You seek solace, find comfort and are firmly anchored in His words and teachings

Then, there are bad days, when:

Everything seems wrong
And you can't pin down what exactly's troubling you
Such that even thick, smooth, rich chocolate don't uplift the mood

A neverending string of woes betide upon you
Problems gnaw and dishearten and self-doubt plagues
Fear creeps in and the past comes back to haunt

You replay and magnify mistakes made and cringe at the ways you handled them
The only words you can manage are bleahs , blahs and the :S icon on MSN
Weariness, jadedness and pessimism sap the energy
Listlessness set in, melancholy seeps in
You wish you were a tad more nonchalant letting go of that something/someone

Faith wavers, you falter
Songs and verses fail to console
You realise that it's not that easy to obey and to hand over control

Days in and out
The happy and the sad
The highs and the lows
The ups and the downs
The weaknesses-
Through which the Lord's strength is made perfect.

Oh Lord, help me believe in this today.